Sick and Dreaming = =

S.I.C.K.

I'm not in the best of health lately. Heart problems, coughing. Bah. -_- If I die...well then I die. I want to go to the doctor...but according to mother...it's too expensive. = = yea well so is a funeral.

As if being sick wasn't enough...I keep having nightmares...
WTF is up with him appearing in an instant dreaming going "PAGE 38!!" with a worried look. Ano...Should i be worried about that?...

Not to mention the other dream. It was too weird...well for me. Asking that nerd to help me decipher it wasn't of help...considering i'm PRETTY sure he forgot. [ Thanks btw = =; ] Now I'm left with "Interpreting" my own dream. Ara...it's giving me a headache. There's so much good at the beginning that it makes me giddy but near the end it's just basically me punishing myself. T-T WTF?! I need a psychologist.

His Kuma ♥

Uwah...I feel like a fool.
Falling in love with someone makes you feel all strange. Both in a good way and in a bad way. Good because you feel like you're..."one" with them. You're loved, and giddy, and you experience just ...magnificent feelings. But with those magnificent feelings are terrible ones. Sometimes jealousy, despair, loneliness when they're not around. Things could go. There's always an endless amount of bad, just as there is good.

♥ I'm quite happy and content ♥
Whenever I talk with him, I'm completely happy. He's funny, sweet, a bit dense , handsome and just...hilarious. When he geeks about Gackt, I just bust a gut. When he's telling me he loves me and words of encouragement...I feel special. Not just another girl, but a special one. Like one that is on top of the world. His fantasies...flow right into me. I'm blushing to the point where I feel I'll pass out. That Casanova~ Haha ♥

✖ I'm pretty lonely and upset ✖
I don't like thinking of the fact that I go days without talking to him. Or days when he forgets what we're supposed to do. When he starts comparing me with his ex...ugh...I feel like pulling my hair out and screaming that he's a dumbass. = = Babo~ I hate how he ends up making me jealous. I don't know if he does it on purpose...or if he's THAT dense. *Sigh*...the things that I put up with. But I'm fighting. Hai...wish me luck~

Kimi o Aishteru Yami-sama ♥

Your Kuma,
Hikari
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